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    Crying over a stranger ...

    It's amazing the ways a life can touch another.

    Leroy Sievers was a respected and accomplished journalist, covering wars and conflicts all over the globe for CBS News and Nightline, winning a bunch of Emmys and a couple of Peabodys in the process, and yet I think it's fair to say that none of his work likely had as much of an impact as did his very public battle with cancer.

    I found his My Cancer Blog on NPR about the time I started this blog, doing research for a book idea I was considering. His site was a refreshing, funny, candid, brave, detailed look at the day-to-day reality of living with cancer and it kept me coming back regularly.

    I wouldn't be able to recognize Sievers on the street, and less than two months ago had never even heard of his name, yet I totally broke down when I logged on today and read that Sievers finally lost his 2 1/2 year fight.

    It's eerie now to go back and read some of his last posts, watching his messages became shorter and shorter, filled with cryptic references like 'one last secret wave' and 'long and sleepless nights', and then reading about his decision to bring in a hospital bed and, finally, a hospice team.

    His last post was about 'a boy and his dog,' a heartbreaking reference to the stuffed animal keeping him comfort as his condition worsened.

    It reminded me of watching my grandmother during her final days, sleeping fitfully and dreaming about who knows what - pleasant and pain-free days hopefully - as she snuggled a small throw pillow tightly to her chest, just as an infant holds a blanket. I guess if we live long enough, we leave this world not much differently than as we enter it.

    I wasn't the only one moved by Sievers' blog. It clearly resonated with his thousands of loyal readers, all of whom seemingly have felt cancer's sting in one way or another and many of whom revealed their own emotional stories in the comments sections.

    These people were all strangers, and yet they came to the site each day, to send prayers to Leroy, to commiserate with him over his struggles and to discuss their own battles, to celebrate the victories, small and big ones alike, and to mourn the losses, hardly any of them small ones.

    Mostly, they came to the site to provide a much-needed source of support and advice for each other. In other words, Leroy's blog became this massive community, and it is quite easy to tell from comments left after the news hit that his readers took on his fight as their own, and that none of them will soon forget him or the lessons his life - and death - provided.

    And that is truly an accomplishment worth celebrating.

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