The Bishop and the Butterfly: Murder, Politics, and the End of the Jazz Age

    Time Out

    When I was unemployed, I would sometimes stay up all night, chatting or blogging or just listening to music. Eventually I'd end up alone after other chatters went to bed, and after other bloggers stopped commenting and posting, and I'd turn off the music and just sit and stare out the windows of my attic apartment and watch the sky lighten.

    There's this pause in the early morning just before the sun breaks over the horizon. This long pause while the sky brightens from black to deep dark blue to a slightly paler hue. It's a lovely thing to watch, to witness. To feel.

    My sister is appalled by the fact that I have lived here in Pelham for almost eight years now and I still don't have a Pelham Library card. I've moved around a lot in my life, and every time I've settled someplace new, obtaining a library card was the first item on my agenda. This time, for whatever reason, I just kept putting it off. But I do love the quietness of a library. I love the solemnity of the librarians, the way they whisper. I love the sound of the clear plastic covers crinkling as I open a book. I love the way the bindings line up all willy nilly, different sizes, shapes and colors, stacked up on a shelf. But I mostly love the quiet.

    I used to watch television pretty regularly, but lately I've just kept it turned off. Cablevision took away MSNBC some time ago, for whatever reason, so I stopped watching cable news and then eventually I just stopped watching cable entirely. Sometimes I'll watch PBS and when I remember to I'll watch Saturday Night Live, but other than that, I've just sort of stopped watching shows that I used to swear I couldn't live without. House, The Office, to name a few.

    My iPod shuffle only holds a certain amount of songs but my iTunes library on my computer seems to have an unlimited capacity, and through the years I've spent a few hundred dollars on songs at 99 cents a pop. I love to play my songs randomly, letting the iPod be my DJ, and now and then I'll sing along or even get up and dance to a tune I love. But some nights, I don't even turn it on. I just sit here typing, reading at the PC with no sound but the hum of the refrigerator in the kitchen, or the sound of the train clacking along the tracks a few blocks away.

    There is something to be said for the sounds of silence. There is a certain peace that comes with turning off and tuning out. Information overload can drive you mad, as can too many people, too much noise. Now that the election is over and the new House is set to move in, I think this would be a good time for me to concentrate less on reading blogs that cover politics, and more on those that cover life in general. Or poetry. Or art. Or cooking. Or....peace. Yeah. I think that's what might be needed at the moment. The holidays are coming, the fun and the craziness, the time off and the hectic shopping, the eating and cooking and traveling and the year-end reporting at work is all coming up.  Perhaps I'm not alone in thinking that for the rest of the year, some alone time might be helpful. Some quiet contemplation away from stimulation may be just what is needed for the soul.

    I would love to hear some of your thoughts on how you spend your quiet time, what you do with your life outside of blogging and commenting, and how you hope to spend your holidays. Please take a moment to set politics aside and why not have a nice, quiet conversation about....life.

    (Cross-posted from Once Upon a Paradigm)

    Comments

    This is a lovely post, lis.  Your descriptions are so tender, and convey the sense of the impressions you choose to share simply and with no fuss, but very beautifully.  For one who also loves the the way night turns to day in the sky and the hush of libraries, I can only say you got it right.  And your measured quiet tone conveys nothing but peace. 


    Thank you, Anna. I just wrote it quite quickly after chatting with Momoe tonight about how she enjoys her few moments of quiet time in the mornings, what with a houseful of family. What she said made me think of how little time we all get, to really sit alone without purpose, without distractions, without having to "think about" or "deal with" everything. Libraries, yes....they were more a church to me than any church I've ever been in. Oh, except the one that you and I sat in this year together, when we enjoyed the Summer Solstice concert. Darn it, did we miss the Winter one?

    No that's in the middle of December, and it's NOT at 4:00 am.

    http://solsticeconcert.com/


    Ah...HA!  So we can do it!  Let's email.  Smile


    wot?


    If you are who you seem to be, of course you too.


    I worked with GOTV in this last election and since then I have been cleaning out the house.  Getting rid of things that I don't need.  It is a real project and it keeps me from being depressed with all the ranting and chest pounding the crazy right is doing now.  I don't expect much from the next 2 years of congress.  I think the time will go real slow waiting for the next election.  I am not very happy with some of the stuff I am reading in the blogs and comments it just makes me too sad.   I want hope back and my son back to work. 

    I take my grand kids to the library every two weeks.  They love it.  We go on Wednesday because the kids only have a half day on Wednesday.  This state don't like schools and teachers.   They are still talking about cutting more funds out of it.  I can't wait to see what the far right has in mind now .  Maybe they will cut the school week down to 4 days in this county.  You know it is important for the uber wealthy to keep all that money and the retirees just can't stand to educate any one elses kids. 

    I will do Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner.  I am a very good baker so there will be goodies.  The kids don't mind the lack of expensive toys.  We do lots of free things and play together alot.  The difference between me and the professor with 450,000 dollar a year income is,  I know how to be poor with grace and class.  I know how to educate my grandkids on a shoe string.  The oldest is in his last year of school and is studying Manderan Chinese in a Urban public school.  We are already working on grants for college. He will do fine at State.  The next one is being tested to skip a grade.  All those trips to the library and hours of reading to him. His little sister in Kindergarden is just as bright.  Again they are in Urban school with minorities.   I see them both going on to college because education is a priority not something I am buying for my kids.  Education is a group effort and the way we play. 

    I live in a trailer and drive a car that is 15 years old.  But if you would ask my grandkids they would tell you that they are not poor, they are middle class.    We are just doing it gracefully while watching the sun rise and set on each other.        


    I love this comment, Momoe.  Every idiotic Republican in Congress on down to the voting booth should read your comment and hopefully feel shame.  Grace, you've got it.  Tenfold.  Thank you for inspiring my post, and for inspiring me.

     


    I second what Anna wrote. A lovely piece of writing, LisB. I will think about it and try to post a response later.


    As a side note, I just want to add that this video is awesome, and I hope you all watch it. I love the song already (yes, it's on my iPod, LOL), but this is a homemade video, apparently, and I think it's true art. It's also repetitive, but I think there's a reason behind that. The more you focus on the images and the song, the more it all makes sense. At least, to me. Please watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vtl0XHIGo8

    On how I spend my quiet time, I used to run until I had done enough damage to my back to have to stop.  These days, one thing I do for relaxation is watch movies, sometimes even comedies, and ballgames on the tube.  Unfortunately, when I am not overseeing kids' homework production or attending to household chores, for "relaxation" I am also as voracious a reader as someone who is as slow a reader as I am can be, with a high proportion of current affairs and history, alas.  Which helps explain why I am so crabby these days. Smile  But I can't seem to stop.

    Good idea to try to get folks to do this.  Temperatures running a little high lately.


    Also, forgot to mention that dinner dates with my wife are good for whatever ails me.  I'm a lucky dog.


    I read in my quiet time and walk FDRdog.  We go out three times a day, my favorite of which is the dawn walk.  The sun comes up over the wildlife refuge across the way and paints the sky the most incredible shades of purple and peach I've ever seen, except maybe for the sunsets over the front range in the evening.  I worked on the GOTV for Senator Bennet, which was very satisfying since we eked out a win.  And I have been going to school - an "enrichment" course at DU to fill in one of the many holes in my education.  There are no papers to write, but the experience gives me plenty to think about in my quiet times.  I confess that I could go to school for the rest of my days.

    And, Lis, about those whispering librarians - speaking as one, I have to tell you they aren't always talking about books.  Kiss


    Ami: You named your dog FDRdog? Love it. What kind of dog is it?  Good work in Colorado! 


    No, AD.  FDRdog was my pseud at TPM and my avatar was a picture of my scruffy looking Scottie.   I was tired of that name when I registered with dagblog and decided the title of the old Ethel Waters song "Am I Blue" was appropriate given the state of politics in the country generally and in the Democratic Party in particular.


    Oh, ok--got it.  Thanks.


    How do I spend my quiet time?  I follow in a long held liberal tradition of brooding on the moor, a tradition these days that has one on one's knees in the rain, tearing at one's shirt, yelling up at the windows of the tenement halls "Obama! Obama!" like some liberal on a hot tin roof.


    That was just wonderful.  Big smile. 


    But do I get the dagblog award, which I can refuse through a surrogate in order to raise the American consciousness about those who are being oppressed by the current media?


    Brother, do you need some pie!


    As Brando use to tell me over those shots:

     


    Apple, I hope. ;)

    When I was in the military, I was stationed at a small radar site south of Ramstein AB up in the hills amongst the farm fields. We had a sprawling, unobstructed view to all points of the compass. The site was manned 24/7 and during the summer when I was the night CQ, I'd open the doors by the phone to hangout on the radar antenna deck to watch sun rise. You'd be amased at the widlife that being to stir as the dawn approaches...I had no idea of the numbers of rabbits, deer and wild pig roamed freely around the field and our site. What was particularly amazing was the landscape just prior to the sun cresting the horizon...very surreal as if Dali was painting it.

    On the flipside, in Nevada, I noted if I was in a canyon facing away from Las vegas and the moon was new you got a double event.

    First was after the sunset, there's still light. If you took the time to kick back, relax and just watch the sky to see if you could catch the first starlight, you could see the edge of night. There really is one! You can see the subtle darkening blue abruptly change to black as is God drew the line in the sky.

    The second was in the Colorado river canyon at Willow beach about 10 miles or so south of Hoover dam. While sitting on the east bank of the river once the sun goes down and the sky is completely dark, the Milky Way is right there in your face. You can see tons of details almost as if you were looking at a picture taken from Hubble! All because being down inside the canyon blocks all the side scatter light that robs your eyes of the finer details.


    Sounds beautiful.  You know what I'd like to see, just once?  The Aurora Borealis.  I've never had the chance, and it sounds breathtaking.

     


    Beautiful, Lis.  The paragraph about the light in the sky is what's breathtaking.  What you're seeing is as wonderful as any Northern Lights you might see from these latitudes.

    I've lived here for 14 years now, at the 46th parallel facing north, unobstructed, with no artificial lights to dim the view, but have only seen the Aurora three times. (Mainly because they want to appear in the middle of the night and always, it seems, on frosty nights. They announce the possibility on the news, but cloud cover kills our chances, too.) 

    Here at this latitude the shimmer is fairly faint compared to the spectacular pictures you see from the "real" north, with a few shots of pale color--mint, teal, aqua, pink--thrilling us because they're so rare.  So far they haven't even been bright enough to photograph.

    My next door neighbor had never seen them either, so when they appeared at midnight, I called her and she came running out in her robe and fuzzies.  We all stood on the dock, shivering in the freezing cold, and we pointed them out to her. . ."See?  See?  Over there!  It looks like blowing curtains!"  She looked and looked, and then she looked at me and muttered "Jesus Christ, that's it?" and stomped back home.

    The next time we saw them it was warmer outside and they were brighter and stayed longer.  We brought out lawn chairs and wrapped ourselves in blankets, drinking wine and sighing a lot.

    I live a quiet life that would be much more peaceful if I could turn off the politics.  I can't.

     


    Hahaha! "Jesus Christ, that's it??" That had me laughing out loud. I wish I could've been there on the night you sat on lawn chairs with blankets and wine, though. And, I gotta say, I'm drawn to politics like a moth to a flame. Try to stay away but can't help myself. Oh well. I guess it's better to stay informed than not.


    Okay, next time it happens I'll give you a call and you better hurry on up here!


    Laughing