Sometimes I think I am Donald Draper.  Sometimes playing it cool and knowing more than I actually do gets me through a few moments, until I realize that nothing is actually ever certain. 

Sometimes a church is a refuge.  The same church I used to ditch.  The church my Father and Mother got married in.  The place I used to take my family, when I had one.  Sometimes, church is just a pretty building.

Sometimes I want to be alone in a windy field.  Sometimes I want to be alone at sunset.  Sometimes I just want to feel the sky, as hard as a gush of a motorized fan. Sometimes, I don't wish to be alone as I am.

There are times I look through the windshield, and realize life will one day end.  Sometimes I look through the windshield, while someone else is driving, and sit there quiet, seeing the world as if for the first time.  Sometimes life feels like light warming the tips of grass.  Sometimes life feels like a storm.

Sometimes life is just unbearable.  Too busy.  Too boring.  Always at the wrong place, or the wrong time.  Sometimes I wonder how much Van Gogh and Gauguin really knew about art.  Sometimes I wonder if Lincoln was just a politician.  Sometimes I wonder if the city is just a place to realize you are alone in it.  That potential often has nothing to do with you and your ability.  That you will try and try to be more than that.  But you will just be you, no matter what happens.  Even if they never saw you.