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    Just Another Day

    And so another Christmas has passed.  The twenty-sixth of December.  Just another day.  Yet the New Year approaches.  Time to look back on the year that was, make the lists and debate over the most memorable moments, the greatest achievements, the best movies, the worst commercials.  A seemingly collective effort not to forget, to ensure some shared memory of what has actually passed, and which is now fading like a dream, is somehow captured, made permanent and enduring.  A time, too, of looking forward, to ponder one’s resolution for the new year, the one thing not to drag along into the future.  We humans are always so busy looking backwards and forwards.  Forwards and backwards.  Busy. Busy. Busy

    Of course, the moment we have chosen to mark the end of one year and the beginning of another is arbritrary.  The appointed day to mark that we have moved around the sun one time.  The next Chinese New Year will be February 3.   The Year of the Rabbit.  To most of Americans, just another day. 

    This morning I wake up and go outside to have a cigarette.  I am visiting my parents for the holidays and so I sit and stare out pass the evergreens and leafless trees of Whidbey Island over Saratoga Passage at Camano Island.  There are a few birds sqwaking, the wind is making a slight murmur with the trees, but otherwise things are quiet.  For the moment the sky above is clear, although there are plenty of clouds all along the periphery.  It is chilly, but not bitter cold.  It will probably rain in a few hours.  A typical Northwest winter day.

    Almost eleven years ago, I was in very similar situation.  Except I was on Camano Island looking over at the Passage at Whidbey.  The morning of January 1, 2000.  Some friends had gathered at a cabin (owned by someone’s parents) for a couple of days of serious drinking.  We had no phone, no radio.  Cut off so to speak from civilization. The mission we would say in jest was to dive into a boozy haze as the world plunged into the chaos that would be Y2K. 

    Midnight came and passed.  Nothing.  Just another night among the dark trees.

    That morning I sat with the only other person awake (everyone else passed out in variously placed sleepingbags throughout the small cabin), smoked cigarettes and drank.  Like this morning, only a few birds were about chirping and squealing.  Like this morning, there was no sound that could be attributed to the world of humans.  She joked that we were the only ones who remained.  I laughed and pointed out the houses on Whidbey across the water.  The traces left behind to remind us that once there were others here.

    A glitch in a computer program had made us the last ones.

    And human time moved forward, and we continued to smoke, and drink, we waited for something to prove us wrong.  A boat moving along the Passage, a plane overhead, the sound of a car passing on the road up the dirt driveway.  Nothing.  Just those birds.  It was getting a little creepy.  (I would say that slipping into paranoia is made a litte easier by indulging in two straight days of drinking.)

    Some of the others inside the cabin began to stir.  We needed supplies: tomato juice, some sandpaper, and tampons.  So my smoking companion and I jumped into one of the cars and headed to the general store, down the two lane road.  The only car on the road cutting through the evergreens.  Then…another car passed us going in other direction.  We both made exaggerated sighs of relief and laughed.  Just another day.

    [Update of sorts: Since it seems that this has been the only blog posted today, and today being just being another day, feel free to treat this as an open thread.  Whatever is on your mind and want to make a comment about, even if doesn't have anything to do whatsoever with my blog (even though all things are somehow connected). 

    Some questions that have come up in my mind, which has to do with resolutions.  These are generally treated as a personal thing. something we do as individuals that we may or may not share with others.  But if we were do a New Year's Resolution as an American nation, what would it be?  How would we phrase it so we could get everyone to buy into it voluntarily?  Should it be something we could realistically achieve? or should we seek something aspirational which would, even though we failed, push to something better?]

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    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y3nVqLfPBtw Out here on the OTHER coast, it's just another day after Christmas, another day of snow. We're apparently having a blizzard, which I'm lucky to be watching from inside a warm attic apartment, in the company of two sleepy cats. The wind is starting to pick up, the snow is really starting to blow, and I'm out of milk and beer but have plenty of water and food, so I have decided not to put on all the snow gear to walk around the corner to the deli. I shall make do with what I have, instead. So long as my neighborhood doesn't lose power, I have warmth and light and the internet. If we lose power, I have candles and books and a well-charged iPod and cell phone. Either way, it's just another day after Christmas, another day of snow. Enjoy your vacation, Trope.

    Thanks.  I think I'm enjoying it as much as I could expect given all my little neuroses. I'm just thinking about the weather later this week, hoping it doesn't become just another day stranded at the airport.  Hope you keep your power, though. 



    Good Samaritan Hospital - West Palm Beach, FLIt did. It snowed. In Atlanta.

    Just finished walking the dogs. It's 26° with a wind chill of 13°.

    Pretty funny for someone born under a palm tree.

     

    [Photo: Good Samaritan Hospital-West Palm Beach, FL.]


    2012 approaches.


    I was born in Altoona PA. and lived in NE Ohio. No palms trees there.


    Love your writing, Trope.  We're having a gorgeous monster blizzard.  My son is napping and we're drinking Russian River Valley cabs and making dinner.  Sadly, I have to go to the office tomorrow but I think it'll be a quiet day.


    Nothing like a gorgeous monster blizzard.  As long as one can stay warm inside somewhere, there is a certain serenity that takes over, a kind of natural hunkering down and accepting of a force greater than ourselves, which has its own beauty in all-ecompassingness.  Enjoy your cab.


    Today comes before tomorrow and after yesterday. It's just like walking. You put one foot in front of the other and eventually you end up somewhere different than where you started. Strangely, if you try to go back to the beginning, it's not quite like what you remembered so you learn to keep moving. You learn the past is something to remember and cherish and today is the beginning of tomorrow.


    Walking meditation comes to my mind. Being mindful with every step, breathing, being not in the now, but the here, this spot, every step not done with loving-kindness, but is loving-kindness.  As Thich Nhat Hanh would say: Each step is life; each step is peace and joy. 

    Walking Meditation with Thich Nhat Hanh by Tess Gallagher

    Fifty of us follow him loosely
    up the mountain at Deer Park Monastery.
    We are in the slow motion of a dream
    lifting off the dreamer's brow. Steps
    into steps and the body rising out
    of them like smoke from a fire
    with many legs. Gradually the flames
    die down and the earth is finally under us.
    Inside the mountain a centipede crawls
    into no-up, no-down.

    Our meditations
    waver and recover us, waver
    and reel us in to our bodies
    like fish willing at last to take on the joy
    of being fish, in or out of the water.
    When we gather at last at the summit
    and sit with him
    we know we have moved the mountain
    to its top as much as it carried us
    deeply into each step.

    Going down is the same.
    We breathe and step. Breathe,
    and step. A many-appendaged being
    in and out of this world. No use
    telling you about peace attained.
    Get out of your feet.
    Your breath. Enter
    the mountain.


    Nice post, Trope.  I remember that year, too, when we pooh-poohed the idea of the electronic world coming to an end when the numbers changed but put away a few days worth of water and provisions just in case.

    I've been thinking about next year and what my resolve might be.  I look at all of the things I was so interested in a few years ago---photography, antiquing, reading actual novels, writing silly nonsense(oh, wait. . .hmmm. . .)--and how they've pretty much taken a back seat to my ridiculous and often misguided passion for saving this dying, pathetic, ungrateful country, and I wonder if I could go easy on the heavy stuff and just enjoy the light stuff again.

    If I were younger I wouldn't even be wondering.  I would figure there's time for everything--nothing but time.  I know better now, and have to give serious thought to priorities.  But there's the dilemma:  Can I go back to indulging in my own personal pleasures, using the excuse that my days are probably shorter than most and therefore getting pretty precious, and just give up on this foolish quest I've set for myself, which, honestly, has no more than a thimble-full of authority or influence anyway? 

    And, even more honestly, is this foolish quest anything more than an indulgence itself?  

    Obviously, I'll need to give this more thought.  I'll get back with you on it.


    I hope you will get back to me (and everyone else).  Is it a foolish quest?  Best to let the dying, pathetic, ungrateful country do what it wants to do?  Can we do anything that is not ultimately indulging of the self?  So many questions.  So little time. 

    Working on another blog, one tangent has brought me back to Milan Kundera and his ponderings of lightness and heaviness.  Which is better?  We become too light and we float away.  Too heavy and we are crushed beneath the weight.  And for each of us, what is light and what is heavy is personal.  We can't turn to some definitive definition.  To each their own path.  With no assurance that we are on the right one.  We can't be sure we haven't chosen this path because of some unresolved wound decades ago, rather than because of some higher calling.

    Being human...it's interesting if nothing else.

    Happy New Year. ; ) 

     


    Being human...it's interesting if nothing else.
    Ain't that the truth. It makes a great quote, too.

    Very nice post. It seems like an island in the northwest would be a pleasant and beautiful place to pass the holidays. I like to listen to the nature sounds and contemplate how much life exists on this wonderful planet Earth.

    I think a good resolution would be for people to observe more and judge less. Sometimes it feels as though society as a whole passes a lot of judgment and often on things they know so little about. We all have feelings, we all have passions, we all want to be loved. But instead of focusing on how similar we all are I see so many people putting down others because they are different in some way and judging them as doing something wrong. So I guess it would be a good direction to start just observing and let the judgments slide away.

    Hope you didn't get stranded at the airport. Although I love airports so being stranded doesn't sound too bad but then again that is just a theory. Might not be so great if it really happened for a few days.


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