By Mary Lou Jepsen, New York Times Sunday Review, Nov. 23/24, 2013
In my early 30s, for a few months, I altered my body chemistry and hormones so that I was closer to a man in his early 20s. I was blown away by how dramatically my thoughts changed. I was angry almost all the time, thought about sex constantly, and assumed I was the smartest person in the entire world. Over the years I had met guys rather like this.
I was not experimenting with hormone levels out of idle curiosity or in some kind of quirky science experiment. I was on hormone treatments because I’d had a tumor removed along with part of my pituitary gland, which makes key hormones the body needs to function [....]
It was great to have a chance at a meaningful life again, but I found it embarrassing to learn firsthand how completely controlled we are by our hormones. I thought it was about the gray matter, but this experience forced me to look differently at how we think. I have had to shape my personality by my hormone doses [....]
I started trying different dosages and was amazed by how my thinking, my sense of who I was and my behavior toward others changed with tiny shifts in dosages. I didn’t know who I was anymore, nor who I wanted to be, but I was healthier [....]